CREATED: may 29, 2024
i got a kitten ! his name is mishka (it means bear in russian, cute version, cuz i love bears and he's such a qt3.14) ^-^ his name was maya at first cuz we got him on may 1st and everyone thought he was a girl, but he's a boy. he is laying down on my keyboard right now XD mishka literally saved me though. i never feel alone, especially at night when i was scared sometimes. he keeps me company and makes me happy every day :3 he is on vibrate mode all the time he is a purring machine :p
CREATED: may 29, 2024
perfection is a curse
CREATED: september 18, 2023
I love making art, it is what makes me feel alive, but sometimes I put this pressure on myself to make more and feel sad as if I haven't made anything, but in reality I literally made a song 5 days ago and a drawing yesterday! I need to slow down in my thinking, and just enjoy the flow of creating as it comes to me. When I told someone that I have to feel like I am productive at all times or else I feel bad, they immediately asked if I am a capricorn. Lol??? Maybe that is a factor, but I have no idea. I will try my best to stop pressuring myself so much 0-p
CREATED: august 31, 2023
really missing my friend synth :( he's at bootcamp. don't forget to appreciate your friends you never know when you can't talk to them as often, they move away, or god forbid......yeah.....hoping it goes swimmingly for him
CREATED: july 22, 2023
i thought a lot about a cool username that speaks to me. finally: vlada the impaler >:] muahahahaha might be cringy, idk, but i am vlada and i am a vampire and know some romanian so i like ;p let me kmow what u think also: i am making music and art again finally. first song in like 8 months???? feels really good :D
CREATED: april 1, 2023
"when people are represented by their image, and not their work, it really changes how we evaluate people." -oliSUNvia YouTube video
CREATED: january 31, 2023
hello, i swear, this website is not abandoned i think about it a lot. because i have university and a job those things are taking up a lot of my time, i have less time for drawing and crafts and fun; feels kinda dumb, like #adulting or something, cringe but true. do not worry, for the maybe one person who looks at this page, i will continue making things i definitely will not abandon this website. just maybe less often, whenever i have time >.>
CREATED: october 19, 2022
The poem "Masks" by Shel Silverstein really resonates with me. What is the point of trying to fit in, dulling yourself down for no reason. So what if people judge you, that does not matter. If you hide who you really are, it is going to be impossible to find like-minded people and only make life miserable. Yeah I am preaching the be yourself thing here but it really is meaningful.
CREATED: october 25, 2021
i seek comfort in decomposition now that my suffering is nostalgic
CREATED: september 23, 2022
today i appreciate palm trees. they are so beautiful we take them for granted sometimes.
CREATED: september 23, 2022
hello, welcome to to the writings page. here i will put thoughts, observations, whatever. maybe even some poetry stuff if my bravery gets to that. even putting my art on here took a lot of bravery because i am usually not one to share my stuff with a wide audience, but neocities is kinda comfy cozy nice. kinda like putting my stuff out into the void, it is a comfortable feeling. and whoever stumbles upon this however you were brought here, reading this, it is meant to be (LOL that sounds like such cheese) but seriously look at where you are in life and think how you got here. uhh i do not know where i was going with that but maybe you do. but yeah, welcome to the writings page, because sometimes i think of something and then i forget later, maybe this will help me forget less.